So currently, I'm half-procrastinating, half-waiting for my two people to come online so we can begin our GPP and hopefully aim for a bed-time before 1 o clock (which would be virtually impossible). Great, whacky fun stuff us lucky JC kids can do nowadays, I really thank my lucky stars that I'm fortunate enough to take PW, it's the best subject anyone can ever ask for.
I just came back from the band concert, and I had no idea what was going on half the time because y'know, I'm chill like that and all sorts of awesomeness and fun. But yeah, it was whacky fun stuff, especially the last two/three songs because ZOMG, THERE WAS CLAPPING (which I was trying very hard not to clap out of rhythm for, which reminds me of Secondary school where I'd intentionally clap out of beat just to piss Xin off or something, heehee).
And I was just like WOAH because I wish I was musically inclined, and I was in Band or some Performing Arts/Music CCA because it's just so wow. Like, playing something like that and trusting the others to play their own bits and having everything come together and sound so impressive and together. You know? It's just so amazing. Haha, I mean, I know this sort of happens in Drama as well, like, idk, but woah. Watching it is kind of woah.
I think it's just the music n00b in me saying this. It's probably second nature to them, like WOAHHH DOOOOD WHUT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT MANNNN~~~!
(I was fangasming over how the band people were wearing suit-like-things/blazers. Because it's so Mafia, but haha, that's just me. I really want a blazer.)
Then the sky (ah, the Sky messing things up once again hahai'mbeingsuchabitchbutthisisaninsidejokewithmyselflolz) opened up on us. Haha, that made it sound cooler than it actually was, it was more of like, it was drizzling. Yeah, but I'm trying to act Lit-- failing, but ah well, life sucks and then you die. (Live fast, die young.) And we walked in the rain all the way to City Hall MRT.
It was fun. Yet it wasn't. It wasn't as open as I thought it would be. Haha, I mean, walking in the rain is usually this super exciting thing for me and I'd be like OH YES BBY LET'S WALK IN THE RAIN OMG I AM SO HAPPY ABOUT THIS RIGHT NOW OMG and idk be gay and shit, but it wasn't like that. Haha, I was like Oh, rain. Yeah, whoooo, I love walking in the rain... Yeah.
I guess I've just been moody for the past few days... Week? I don't know. But I just don't feel very not-empty. Maybe it's just like the because of CAP. But I don't think so, I've been feeling like that for a while. The Secondary 2 effect in which I'm just this little blackhole of angst and blah, and then it's like OH YES LET'S BE HIGH FOR A WHILE BECAUSE WELL, YEAH, I CAN'T BE EMO FOREVER, then I go back to being sad and angsty.
Which is tiring. (TO THE EXTREME, ilyryoheiheehee) I don't know. It's just frustrating because even I don't know why I feel so empty, like there's something wrong somewhere, some short-circuit. I guess. I just am. I guess that it's just beginning to get to me that I'm not really doing much with my life right now, I mean. There's no proper thing to define myself by besides psychopatic-socially awkward-not tall-retarded-=.='', that. And I just... I just wish I've accomplished something important so far this year, which I haven't because I've failed spectacularly in everything that matters/counts/would make a difference or whatever (and it's not even about cap anymore).
Haha.
Yeah, I need to start acting like a J1. Oops, sorry Year 5 student, and stop acting like a Secondary 2 student. Plus, this is going on my blog so I suppose right now, I've just switched places with Xin for the EMO EMO ANGST blog.
So, I found out today I didn't get into CAP. Which let's face it, I should have expected because everything pointed in that direction or rather, I just was so absolutely hopeful about it and everything I get extremely enthused about something, life just screws it over. Haha whatever, that was a bad reason.
But yeah, life sucks and then you die. I guess I'm not good enough, haha, or not, or whatever, because no matter how small the group picked was this year or how subjective the selection committee is or whatever, if I was good enough, I would have gotten in, y'know?
This was playing in my head just now during 2.4km. The. Whole. Time. Well, not really cause I was like: AS MUCH AS I LOVE HUMAN, I WILL DIE. So I was like omgomgomgLM. Comgomgomg in my head, and it worked for like thirty seconds, then it turned back into Human. Of course after the third lap I was like HOLY SHIT I'M GOING TO DIE NONONO RUN! so all music was kinda obliverated-- kinda.
Let me be smug about my timing btw: 12.37! :DDD FEEL MY HAPPYNESS, OMG, I couldn't stop beaming after that because I was like HOLY SHIT! THIS IS MY FASTEST EVER. AND I HAVEN'T TRAINED IN HOW LONG?!?!? Which reminds me, I want to go back to TKD this week, ugh, I can't believe I've left for so long, I've totally forgotten all the patterns. But yeah, the little book will come in handy.
Hmmm... :/
I seriously need to start studying even though I managed to pass Econs (omgikromgwtfbbqhaha, 9/20!) but whatever, I feel my braincells dying and I think they are, well they aren't dying because they're already dead. =.= *dies*
Stupid procrastinating/lazy/ass Rei-En, QUICK GO WORK. STOP SAYING YOU'LL DO EVERYTHING TOMORROW.
But that's what I always end up doing.
OKAY.
OKAY.
Maa maa.
SCREW YOU LAHHHHHHH. Rawr, I hate being so directionless all the time.
(Oh, but they look so good together, I can't stand it. -dies-
Takari looks so out of place, and I realize I don't love them that much anymore. Taishirou, Daikeru. ^-^)
I realize I have no Real Persons!OTP pictures posted up here, but it's because I can't find them (too lazy to look for them) in my hard disk, but ily Sen-Chan/Umeko, Tori/Dustin, Bridge/Z, Ryan/Sharpay.
OMG, I THINK MY CAP PORTFOLIO IS DONE, WELL NEARLY DONE. There's just reflections left to do and the small fact that most of my pieces are practically about the same thing. Heh.
Free Cone Day was yesterday and it was much fun. Apart from the fact that just as soon as we got to Cathay, Natalie and Jonathan decided to pangsei me after looking at the queue and then went to MacDonalds to study instead. Gosh, those muggers.
I had an insanely awesome time with Daphie-kins, Xin, Celine and Benita though. Spending time with them makes me realize how much I do miss St Nicks and all my Unityfreaks and the Dramafreaks and Gerbil and everyone, EVERYONE. Even though so much time has passed since the start of the school year and I thought that I had adapted to life in RJC and with 11S07C, I STILL MISS THEM SO MUCH. Gosh! I mean, it's not the every morning, my heart aches with the seperation wtv bs type of missing, it's the I don't know how to say but I miss you guys so much but why don't I think of you that much but I do miss you you know? Omg.
It's not that I dislike my new class because they are really a cool bunch of people. But I just wish so much that there were more 4 Unity/Muggers Club people here in RJC, life feels so empty without them. I think it's so strange that at the start of Sec 3, I hated Unity like a crazyfreak and yet at the end of Sec 4, I think I've grown so much closer to so many people in the class. Maybe it's just me, but I trust everyone of them so much. (I think I'm just feeling sentimental. YOU OLD FART.)
(OH, and I watched the class video and that just made things worse. But it made me happy because THE VIDEO IS SO PRETTY AND KICKASS. And who edited it? Heeeeee. Sony Vegas FTW, DOWN WITH WINDOWS MOVIE MAKER.)
So anyway, the results for Council Nominees came out today and I didn't make the cut. I wasn't very surprised though because I totally screwed up for the interview, plus CAN YOU IMAGINE ME AS A COUNCILLOR? The school will go up in flames I tell you. Either that or I'll become a zombie because lack of sleep + Rei-En = .... ... ... -dies-. I need to work on this cannot survive without sleep bs thing I have.
I feel like posting up a picture, but I have no pretty pictures to post up. AND I AM HUNGRY LIKE A FISH. Don't ask me, I don't know either.
OH! And SYF auditions were today too! It was fun and super scary but fun, and omg, the tsd room is just so pretty. I swear, if the juniors get a room like that, I will go back as much as I can just to CRASH and invoke my OI I WAS PIONEER DRAMA SENIOR YOU DARE TO TALK BACK HUH? I KILL YOU, FAIL DIE ZERO!.
And I crashed band practice today, not that they were doing much practicing. I can't wait to watch their Wizard of Oz BS okay! It sounds freaking retarded and they've got Bad Guy/Good Guy dances. O.O I KNOW RIGHT, SO FULL OF WIN? Perhaps, maybe. Ehhhh, Dramaclass could do better than them, KUFUFUFUFUFUFU.
I'll distort your perceptions Warp your preconceptions You won't see things the same way again --Prejudice, Love is the Law
(For once, I will do a normal blog post where I post about my day and shit.)
MR got banned from Dramafest.
Sorry, I mean, MR got taken out of the programme for Dramafest due to sensitive content.
Bitches.
I can't believe we got banned! There are times when I wish I could round up all close-minded, narrow-minded shitheads in the world and start discriminating against them and being retarded to them, just so they know what it's like to be prejudiced against and be unable to do anything about it.
Even up till now, I can't see what's so wrong with our play that it had to be taken out of it. I mean, it wasn't as if there were two guys on stage making out, or that offensive whatevers on stage. Heck, if the emcees are able to crack jokes filled with sexual innuendos onstage, why aren't we allowed to have a play that handles the idea of homosexuality and whatnot? I mean, surely if you get such jokes, you'll have the emotional and mental capacity to understand the play and not be immature about it.
God, I just feel so pissed off thinking about it now. (Haha, this is like the stage of anger.)
Mr Lyon told us something that made me feel slightly better about the situation, it went something like, We shouldn't feel angry about it now, but we should recall that anger and feeling of injustice when we are finally the ones in power. Because we can make a change then.
To a certain extent, this is certainly ironic. In Love is the Law, Prejudice won after all, the straight couple couldn't be tolerated. So here we've got prejudice winning, and this BS happening. At least the audience got the message of the play... Albiet, they understood the message then went to bitch about it.
Those people need lives srsly. I mean, who actually bothers to make complaints about a twenty-minute school play! GO GET A LIFE, GOSH. How does this even affect you? IT DOESN'T. Are you worried that this'll end up influencing the audience members to turn homosexual? Please, I'm sure they aren't that easily influenced. (If you've got nothing better to do, why don't you go hunt some mammoths or go start a fire? Kwun Tong's line ftw.)
My thoughts are so incoherant right now and I really should be sleeping because there's Japanese class later and I really can't remember half of what we've learnt but whatever. I'm still too pissed off.
No offense, and I'm incredibly biased and whatever, but I certainly don't think we deserved to come in fifth. And even if we did suck yesterday, we still should have the chance to prove ourselves today. I was looking forward to performing some supertastic play today and being all, YEAH, SO WHAT IF I'M FIFTH, I'M STILL GOOD.
Well, whatever.
I hate stupid people with no brains. GO DIE IN A DITCH. You're going to be condemned to eternal discomfort in the moderate heat of Heck. (Heehee, my line.)
Before I started writing this, I felt super sad and I was going to blog about how I died after Cat told us we got banned and during intermission when the emcees went, OH GO OUT BECAUSE WE NEED TO SOUND CHECK FOR MR... OH WAIT, THEY GOT TAKEN OUT, I MEAN, MT. My heart just died a little. I swear, I felt like I was going to die because it was just so freaking unfair we got taken out.
But you've got to admit, it's pretty cool to be like, Yeah, I was from the play that got banned. Oh yes, the first play that got banned from DF. Oh, and that was my first production ever.
(So only Kyon would get the reference in my title, if she's reading this. Which I bet she is cause she's secretly a stalker. VOI, KYON TAG LAH. Spread some love to your awesome baseball idiot. Ushishishishi.)
I was watching a KHR video yesterday and it made me feel so super sad about life and how everything is sucky and not KHR/Digimon/Power Rangers awesome! And I swear, I became Secondary 2 again when the whole world was collasping around me and I was this emo piece of BS.
Haha, how I miss my little emo self in Sec 2. Nah, I don't. I can't believe how retarded I was, it's really funny.
But anyway, I just wish something cool like that would happen. Because if not, there's not much to do is there? Haha, I mean, I feel like I'm just wasting my life away. What's the point of life?
Hoho, this is getting dangerously close to being border-line emo. Ah heck, I probably checked in through the customs and sailed into Emo Land already. It's okay! Let me emo about this for a post and for the next few million, I'll be the spastic spazz I really am most of the time.
Everything just feels futile, meaningless, you know?
Or whatever. My brain's just dead and I'm procrastinating and refusing to finish my Chemistry tutorial.
There are times I just wonder what's the point of it all.
But I love you guys loads and seriously, if I off myself, how will you survive without me? Especially you Xin, I know you can't live without me. Haha, I realize that I've been using my blog uber loads recently because I don't have you guys around me anymore. XD
Rei-En
16
30 July 1993
Singapore We were watching our lives pass us by
But then we were stopped by a shooting star
Now if we can just find something to believe in
then we can be stronger.
So I will take your trembling hand and bring you with me,
and we will grow stronger by walking against the wind.
--Boys and Girls, LM. C
and talk with your hips
Harem
Oh look at this, I'm no one's pimp. Let's disregard the fact that I'm too lazy to link anyone at the moment.
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#75. Yeah, I'm dancing with myself
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
So currently, I'm half-procrastinating, half-waiting for my two people to come online so we can begin our GPP and hopefully aim for a bed-time before 1 o clock (which would be virtually impossible). Great, whacky fun stuff us lucky JC kids can do nowadays, I really thank my lucky stars that I'm fortunate enough to take PW, it's the best subject anyone can ever ask for.
I just came back from the band concert, and I had no idea what was going on half the time because y'know, I'm chill like that and all sorts of awesomeness and fun. But yeah, it was whacky fun stuff, especially the last two/three songs because ZOMG, THERE WAS CLAPPING (which I was trying very hard not to clap out of rhythm for, which reminds me of Secondary school where I'd intentionally clap out of beat just to piss Xin off or something, heehee).
And I was just like WOAH because I wish I was musically inclined, and I was in Band or some Performing Arts/Music CCA because it's just so wow. Like, playing something like that and trusting the others to play their own bits and having everything come together and sound so impressive and together. You know? It's just so amazing. Haha, I mean, I know this sort of happens in Drama as well, like, idk, but woah. Watching it is kind of woah.
I think it's just the music n00b in me saying this. It's probably second nature to them, like WOAHHH DOOOOD WHUT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT MANNNN~~~!
(I was fangasming over how the band people were wearing suit-like-things/blazers. Because it's so Mafia, but haha, that's just me. I really want a blazer.)
Then the sky (ah, the Sky messing things up once again hahai'mbeingsuchabitchbutthisisaninsidejokewithmyselflolz) opened up on us. Haha, that made it sound cooler than it actually was, it was more of like, it was drizzling. Yeah, but I'm trying to act Lit-- failing, but ah well, life sucks and then you die. (Live fast, die young.) And we walked in the rain all the way to City Hall MRT.
It was fun. Yet it wasn't. It wasn't as open as I thought it would be. Haha, I mean, walking in the rain is usually this super exciting thing for me and I'd be like OH YES BBY LET'S WALK IN THE RAIN OMG I AM SO HAPPY ABOUT THIS RIGHT NOW OMG and idk be gay and shit, but it wasn't like that. Haha, I was like Oh, rain. Yeah, whoooo, I love walking in the rain... Yeah.
I guess I've just been moody for the past few days... Week? I don't know. But I just don't feel very not-empty. Maybe it's just like the because of CAP. But I don't think so, I've been feeling like that for a while. The Secondary 2 effect in which I'm just this little blackhole of angst and blah, and then it's like OH YES LET'S BE HIGH FOR A WHILE BECAUSE WELL, YEAH, I CAN'T BE EMO FOREVER, then I go back to being sad and angsty.
Which is tiring. (TO THE EXTREME, ilyryoheiheehee) I don't know. It's just frustrating because even I don't know why I feel so empty, like there's something wrong somewhere, some short-circuit. I guess. I just am. I guess that it's just beginning to get to me that I'm not really doing much with my life right now, I mean. There's no proper thing to define myself by besides psychopatic-socially awkward-not tall-retarded-=.='', that. And I just... I just wish I've accomplished something important so far this year, which I haven't because I've failed spectacularly in everything that matters/counts/would make a difference or whatever (and it's not even about cap anymore).
Haha.
Yeah, I need to start acting like a J1. Oops, sorry Year 5 student, and stop acting like a Secondary 2 student. Plus, this is going on my blog so I suppose right now, I've just switched places with Xin for the EMO EMO ANGST blog.
So, I found out today I didn't get into CAP. Which let's face it, I should have expected because everything pointed in that direction or rather, I just was so absolutely hopeful about it and everything I get extremely enthused about something, life just screws it over. Haha whatever, that was a bad reason.
But yeah, life sucks and then you die. I guess I'm not good enough, haha, or not, or whatever, because no matter how small the group picked was this year or how subjective the selection committee is or whatever, if I was good enough, I would have gotten in, y'know?
This was playing in my head just now during 2.4km. The. Whole. Time. Well, not really cause I was like: AS MUCH AS I LOVE HUMAN, I WILL DIE. So I was like omgomgomgLM. Comgomgomg in my head, and it worked for like thirty seconds, then it turned back into Human. Of course after the third lap I was like HOLY SHIT I'M GOING TO DIE NONONO RUN! so all music was kinda obliverated-- kinda.
Let me be smug about my timing btw: 12.37! :DDD FEEL MY HAPPYNESS, OMG, I couldn't stop beaming after that because I was like HOLY SHIT! THIS IS MY FASTEST EVER. AND I HAVEN'T TRAINED IN HOW LONG?!?!? Which reminds me, I want to go back to TKD this week, ugh, I can't believe I've left for so long, I've totally forgotten all the patterns. But yeah, the little book will come in handy.
Hmmm... :/
I seriously need to start studying even though I managed to pass Econs (omgikromgwtfbbqhaha, 9/20!) but whatever, I feel my braincells dying and I think they are, well they aren't dying because they're already dead. =.= *dies*
Stupid procrastinating/lazy/ass Rei-En, QUICK GO WORK. STOP SAYING YOU'LL DO EVERYTHING TOMORROW.
But that's what I always end up doing.
OKAY.
OKAY.
Maa maa.
SCREW YOU LAHHHHHHH. Rawr, I hate being so directionless all the time.
(Oh, but they look so good together, I can't stand it. -dies-
Takari looks so out of place, and I realize I don't love them that much anymore. Taishirou, Daikeru. ^-^)
I realize I have no Real Persons!OTP pictures posted up here, but it's because I can't find them (too lazy to look for them) in my hard disk, but ily Sen-Chan/Umeko, Tori/Dustin, Bridge/Z, Ryan/Sharpay.
OMG, I THINK MY CAP PORTFOLIO IS DONE, WELL NEARLY DONE. There's just reflections left to do and the small fact that most of my pieces are practically about the same thing. Heh.
Free Cone Day was yesterday and it was much fun. Apart from the fact that just as soon as we got to Cathay, Natalie and Jonathan decided to pangsei me after looking at the queue and then went to MacDonalds to study instead. Gosh, those muggers.
I had an insanely awesome time with Daphie-kins, Xin, Celine and Benita though. Spending time with them makes me realize how much I do miss St Nicks and all my Unityfreaks and the Dramafreaks and Gerbil and everyone, EVERYONE. Even though so much time has passed since the start of the school year and I thought that I had adapted to life in RJC and with 11S07C, I STILL MISS THEM SO MUCH. Gosh! I mean, it's not the every morning, my heart aches with the seperation wtv bs type of missing, it's the I don't know how to say but I miss you guys so much but why don't I think of you that much but I do miss you you know? Omg.
It's not that I dislike my new class because they are really a cool bunch of people. But I just wish so much that there were more 4 Unity/Muggers Club people here in RJC, life feels so empty without them. I think it's so strange that at the start of Sec 3, I hated Unity like a crazyfreak and yet at the end of Sec 4, I think I've grown so much closer to so many people in the class. Maybe it's just me, but I trust everyone of them so much. (I think I'm just feeling sentimental. YOU OLD FART.)
(OH, and I watched the class video and that just made things worse. But it made me happy because THE VIDEO IS SO PRETTY AND KICKASS. And who edited it? Heeeeee. Sony Vegas FTW, DOWN WITH WINDOWS MOVIE MAKER.)
So anyway, the results for Council Nominees came out today and I didn't make the cut. I wasn't very surprised though because I totally screwed up for the interview, plus CAN YOU IMAGINE ME AS A COUNCILLOR? The school will go up in flames I tell you. Either that or I'll become a zombie because lack of sleep + Rei-En = .... ... ... -dies-. I need to work on this cannot survive without sleep bs thing I have.
I feel like posting up a picture, but I have no pretty pictures to post up. AND I AM HUNGRY LIKE A FISH. Don't ask me, I don't know either.
OH! And SYF auditions were today too! It was fun and super scary but fun, and omg, the tsd room is just so pretty. I swear, if the juniors get a room like that, I will go back as much as I can just to CRASH and invoke my OI I WAS PIONEER DRAMA SENIOR YOU DARE TO TALK BACK HUH? I KILL YOU, FAIL DIE ZERO!.
And I crashed band practice today, not that they were doing much practicing. I can't wait to watch their Wizard of Oz BS okay! It sounds freaking retarded and they've got Bad Guy/Good Guy dances. O.O I KNOW RIGHT, SO FULL OF WIN? Perhaps, maybe. Ehhhh, Dramaclass could do better than them, KUFUFUFUFUFUFU.
I'll distort your perceptions Warp your preconceptions You won't see things the same way again --Prejudice, Love is the Law
(For once, I will do a normal blog post where I post about my day and shit.)
MR got banned from Dramafest.
Sorry, I mean, MR got taken out of the programme for Dramafest due to sensitive content.
Bitches.
I can't believe we got banned! There are times when I wish I could round up all close-minded, narrow-minded shitheads in the world and start discriminating against them and being retarded to them, just so they know what it's like to be prejudiced against and be unable to do anything about it.
Even up till now, I can't see what's so wrong with our play that it had to be taken out of it. I mean, it wasn't as if there were two guys on stage making out, or that offensive whatevers on stage. Heck, if the emcees are able to crack jokes filled with sexual innuendos onstage, why aren't we allowed to have a play that handles the idea of homosexuality and whatnot? I mean, surely if you get such jokes, you'll have the emotional and mental capacity to understand the play and not be immature about it.
God, I just feel so pissed off thinking about it now. (Haha, this is like the stage of anger.)
Mr Lyon told us something that made me feel slightly better about the situation, it went something like, We shouldn't feel angry about it now, but we should recall that anger and feeling of injustice when we are finally the ones in power. Because we can make a change then.
To a certain extent, this is certainly ironic. In Love is the Law, Prejudice won after all, the straight couple couldn't be tolerated. So here we've got prejudice winning, and this BS happening. At least the audience got the message of the play... Albiet, they understood the message then went to bitch about it.
Those people need lives srsly. I mean, who actually bothers to make complaints about a twenty-minute school play! GO GET A LIFE, GOSH. How does this even affect you? IT DOESN'T. Are you worried that this'll end up influencing the audience members to turn homosexual? Please, I'm sure they aren't that easily influenced. (If you've got nothing better to do, why don't you go hunt some mammoths or go start a fire? Kwun Tong's line ftw.)
My thoughts are so incoherant right now and I really should be sleeping because there's Japanese class later and I really can't remember half of what we've learnt but whatever. I'm still too pissed off.
No offense, and I'm incredibly biased and whatever, but I certainly don't think we deserved to come in fifth. And even if we did suck yesterday, we still should have the chance to prove ourselves today. I was looking forward to performing some supertastic play today and being all, YEAH, SO WHAT IF I'M FIFTH, I'M STILL GOOD.
Well, whatever.
I hate stupid people with no brains. GO DIE IN A DITCH. You're going to be condemned to eternal discomfort in the moderate heat of Heck. (Heehee, my line.)
Before I started writing this, I felt super sad and I was going to blog about how I died after Cat told us we got banned and during intermission when the emcees went, OH GO OUT BECAUSE WE NEED TO SOUND CHECK FOR MR... OH WAIT, THEY GOT TAKEN OUT, I MEAN, MT. My heart just died a little. I swear, I felt like I was going to die because it was just so freaking unfair we got taken out.
But you've got to admit, it's pretty cool to be like, Yeah, I was from the play that got banned. Oh yes, the first play that got banned from DF. Oh, and that was my first production ever.
(So only Kyon would get the reference in my title, if she's reading this. Which I bet she is cause she's secretly a stalker. VOI, KYON TAG LAH. Spread some love to your awesome baseball idiot. Ushishishishi.)
I was watching a KHR video yesterday and it made me feel so super sad about life and how everything is sucky and not KHR/Digimon/Power Rangers awesome! And I swear, I became Secondary 2 again when the whole world was collasping around me and I was this emo piece of BS.
Haha, how I miss my little emo self in Sec 2. Nah, I don't. I can't believe how retarded I was, it's really funny.
But anyway, I just wish something cool like that would happen. Because if not, there's not much to do is there? Haha, I mean, I feel like I'm just wasting my life away. What's the point of life?
Hoho, this is getting dangerously close to being border-line emo. Ah heck, I probably checked in through the customs and sailed into Emo Land already. It's okay! Let me emo about this for a post and for the next few million, I'll be the spastic spazz I really am most of the time.
Everything just feels futile, meaningless, you know?
Or whatever. My brain's just dead and I'm procrastinating and refusing to finish my Chemistry tutorial.
There are times I just wonder what's the point of it all.
But I love you guys loads and seriously, if I off myself, how will you survive without me? Especially you Xin, I know you can't live without me. Haha, I realize that I've been using my blog uber loads recently because I don't have you guys around me anymore. XD
Oh look at this, I'm no one's pimp.
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